There was a time I thought I would not make
it, but God took me out. A broken spirit, a broken spirit and a contrite heart,
He will not despise.
Day4
“What you are going through is just
preparing you for where you are going. God has great plans for you; don’t let
the Devil have his way. Let God have his way in your life.”
Being in church yesterday helped me forget
all about my problems, but I can’t be in the church all week. A major part of
my life is outside my church and if I’m going to depend on the church for my
happiness then I’m going to have a problem. I have to get up. I have to stand
up like a soldier who everybody thought was defeated but proved them wrong and
rose again even more victoriously. I am
fighting the good fight of faith, I am finishing my course, and I am keeping
the faith!
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
a broken spirit and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise. ~Psalm
51:17
My friend and I pledged that for this whole
week we are going to rise at midnight and seek God’s face. I don’t know if
there’s any good in me left. I can’t help but ask myself like Nathanael did
when he heard about Jesus, can anything good come out of South Africa? Can
anything good come out of a fornicator? I don’t know where this journey is leading
me to, but I will not let go off God’s hand. I really thought that I would
never fall that far, but I fell. I am determined not to fall but I might fall
again-I don’t know, Lord knows I don’t want to. I know that I don’t have any
strength or power besides God’s Holy Spirit to keep me away from falling, I
feel like a fool. I have to approach God’s throne with humility and nakedness
and say God, without you I am nothing, I can do nothing. If I fall again, I
will get up, and if I fall yet again, I will get up; I will keep getting up,
and up, and up…until I obtain that crown of righteousness.
My friend cried with me in the midnight
hour. We wailed and wept like two lost souls. It’s so comforting to know that there’s
always somebody out there who’s willing to help you carry your burden, who
feels the pain that you are going through. Who sacrifices her sleep and time to
stand in the gap for you. True friends really do exist. Friends who are always
there to carry you when you are weak. They look right into your eyes and they
feel the pain that you are feeling. With less words but their gentle presence
they encourage you to get up again. I pray for all Christians now, I pray that
God keeps us strong and united to each other. (The enemy is waging war on the body
of Christ. He wants us to give into sin and reject our Maker; the same thing he
did in the Garden of Eden. God over Porn). Believers don’t be happy when
another believer falls. We are each other strength’s. When you are in despair
and you feel like you can’t go on, only a true believer will be there to lead
you to our Father’s light. We shouldn’t fight each other; we shouldn’t
anticipate the downfall of one another, because at the end of the day we only
have each other.
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| That's Phelo, fell asleep while praying lol |
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