It always seems as if people who fall and cry aloud in churches are just pretending? Well, although I didn’t really think much about it, somewhere in the back of my head I thought they were just being dramatic! How ironic! I jump and do all dramatic things, but just because I never fell or shouted out a cry, it made me think that I was less dramatic? Thank God I experienced my own fall when I least expected it and now I understand that when the Holy Spirit is at work in you, you can be as dramatic as you want and careless what people think about you!
All this happened during the CRC Dream Week conference! Awesome pastors from all around the world came to share the Word of God with us; it was also a week of impartation! I cannot thank God enough for the person who just decided to take me to CRC when I first came to Bloemfontein out of the many churches they have here! But I know that God had all this planned for my life! A big church! A big dream! A big pastor and a big vision-All for a big God!
As I grew up I often had a picture coming to my mind! At that time I didn’t know the difference between a vision and an imagination, because I was still young and perplexed! But now I know, and from what I have seen, a vision is a vivid picture that comes to your mind when you didn’t expect it and an imagination is something that you purposefully think about! I know the difference because I do see visions and I do imagine! In Joel 2:28, God says, “And afterward, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your old men will dream dreams, your young men will see visions.” This reoccurring picture I had through my entire life was me standing in front of a huge congregation, in a blue dress holding a microphone! I just thought it was one of those things in my head, just a dream that I wish to fulfill someday, but now I know that it was a vision given by God! When I lived in sin and my spiritual man was dead, God continued putting the vision in my head! He knew that one day I would understand!
So, here, during the dream week conference, pastor At calls people who just have a desire to worship God to come to the front and freely do so! The hunger and desire that I have for God would not allow me to sit stubbornly on my chair and not go to the front even though I would be the only one-fortunately I was not! With people bowing down in reverence and holy fear to the Lord, I stood there with my arms wide open, whispering silently, “Jesus I am hungry for you, fill me!” The worship went on a little bit longer and I just got in that state where worship was all I lived for! I’m familiar with it so I was not surprised! I was surprised though when God called out my name! He said, “Titi!” I didn’t really take that into much consideration because here I am in the midst of thousands of worshipers and God just calls out my name and makes me feel important to Him! As I continued worshiping, the vision of the congregation came again! This time it was clearly shown to me from corner to corner! I continued worshiping God! He called out my name again this time with authority and power, “Tiisetso!” And like a child learning how to speak I answered, “Da-ddy!” Psalm 29:4 says, “The voice of the Lord is powerful; the voice of the Lord is majestic.” He said, “Tiisetso I’m about to breathe into your spirit right now!” I began to breathe harder, with fists clenched, and mouth opened wide…God says in psalm 81:10, “I am the Lord your God, who brought you up out of Egypt. Open wide your mouth and I will fill it.” I felt that my body was opened into two parts, and an air fan was placed in my stomach! This was the breath of God! As powerful as a strong wind!! In an instant moment there I am falling with slow motion(like the matrix), a loud cry came out of my spirit, not even thinking about who’s going to hold me when I fall, or what part of my body is going to show! How dramatic is that!! I couldn’t understand what people always felt when they fall and make noise; they are just experiencing the powerful work of God! God breathed into my spirit; in the heat and multitudes I felt His breath, which knocked me down on the ground! Now if you come to me and tell me that there is no God…expect a slap from me! I have no time to entertain atheists and people who harden their hearts to Gods clear existence! I had a personal encounter with my King and He lives, no doubt!
As I was seated there back on my chair, the Holy Spirit clearly tells me, I want you to tell people about the vision you always see! It’s quite hilarious because I have been studying the book of Jeremiah but I sounded just like him! “I do not know how to speak; I am too young.” (Jer.1:3) See all along I knew that I was called to do something, but the vision was way bigger than what I ever comprehended! So during these five months I’ve been questioning myself! Will I really be able to fulfill this vision! Will I one day stand in the front of multitudes of people preaching the gospel! And that’s what led me to the book of Jeremiah! In chapter 1:5 God says, “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.”
This is what this conference Dream Week was all about! To revive my dreams and to walk in the mighty plan God has for my life! He says talk about your vision because I want people to see that I can use an ordinary person to do extraordinary things! Pastor Russel , the founder of planet shakers music and church , talked about leaving your mark in this generation! Pastor Don Phillips from Umtata said that, God is bringing out the best in me! God is not private and I am going public with this! I am not going to apologise for the work I was called to do! Some people will feel that your prayers are too loud or embarrassing; your anointing will make others feel guilty! Pastor Ray Mc’couley said that some people will feel jealous when God starts working in you! But that’s how it is supposed to be, your anointing should intimidate those people who don’t want to change their lives or who don’t see themselves living big for God! Pastor Chris Hill, prophesied into my life and said, God is rising up a woman who has a vision! My potential is limitless because I am plugged into God’s Word! There is an ARMY rising up and we cannot allow ourselves to be comfortable in this generation!
Dream Week was really fantastic and there’s so much I wish I could write but I will do that soon! Here’s a declaration I wrote myself after the conference which I believe will help you too!
I am called to demonstrate the power of God in my generation! I may not see it now, but I believe the King still has one more move! I am not intimidated but I intimidate, I have the power of God residing big in me! I do not live in limitations because I have plugged myself in God’s Word, and I will do what he says I will do! I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me! I have the ability of God; I have the mind of God! I am holding in my hand the sword of the spirit and just like David cut Goliaths head, I cut the spirit of fear and intimidation off! I understand what God has called me to be and I will walk in His plan! God has given me the spirit of a conqueror! I am more than a conqueror through Christ who loves me! I am anointed to Conqueror Mountains and giants and everything that rises up against me! The devil cannot lie to me because He is under my feet! I live my life for God and I am living it with passion! I am arising and shining today for God’s glory! I am the best I can possibly be in my studies, in my church, in my nation, because God lives in me! My spirit is revived! I am shaped by a vision, therefore, I am equipped and strengthened daily to run this raise and keep the faith high! I do not wait for things to come to me, but things are coming out of me! Out of my belly shall flow rivers of life! I am taking dominion in this world and I reign with Christ Jesus! Nothing will keep me from God’s work! No lack, no weakness, no emotion, I am steadfast in this journey! I am big because my God is big! I do no not talk small because God has spoken something big in me! He is big right here, right now at this moment! I know that there’s more tome than what I see right now! This little light of mine, I am going to let it shine! I am arising and shinning for God’s glory! I keep moving because I am hungry for God; He takes me from glory to glory! God has commissioned me so therefore I can accomplish anything in this life! God has called me for what I am doing right now, and that is to spread His gospel! This is the life I dreamt of but never imagined! The best is yet to come!
I know this picture is very dark, and its good that I smiled lol! But right here with me, is the famous Pastor Bill Wilson, who owns the largest Sunday school in the whole WORLD! And taking a picture with him was such an honor!!!
These beautiful God-fearing young women who are destined for greater things! We believe it so we say....yeeeaaaaahhhhh!